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HEY GUYS!!!!! It has been a WHILE. I am so, so sorry that it has been so long since I have written a blog post. Let’s just say that life has been CRAZY. 

First of all, it was really hard to get back into a routine after the Holidays. I am sure that has been really hard for everyone. Right after Christmas my husband and I were busy planning our trip to the mountains with some of our best friends so I do apologize for not being as active on here during that time. 

Second of all, life has really hit me hard. Not in necessarily a bad way, but in a very real way. One of my favorite bloggers, Karlie Rae, did an Instagram story last week about a sermon she listened to and it was all about what you “place your ladder” on. In that scenario, ladder basically means your life, your happiness, your thoughts, your time, and your everything. So in other words, what is it in your life that you put the most energy towards, that helps to define you, and that you base your happiness on? This is a very tough question and the more I thought about it the more I realized that I was placing my ladder on SOCIAL MEDIA. In other words, I came to the harsh realization that social media was consuming most of my time, most of my energy, and more importantly I was letting it control my feelings. How crazy is that?! It was a very hard thing for me to admit to myself but also something that needed to happen. Why, you may ask?

Well, I needed a harsh reality call. And boy did I get one. This past week I did a lot of self reflecting and came to the realization that there is so much more to life than social media. Don’t get me wrong, I absolutely love blogging and I always will, but for me to let blogging and my presence on social media define me as a person was absolutely absurd. There was a point (and I am sure that many other bloggers can relate if they are really honest with themselves) when I was basing a lot of my happiness on how many likes I got on a picture, how many items of clothing I sold and how many followers I gained. It sucks for me to admit that but it’s the truth and I promise you guys that I will always be real with you.  However, I am so glad that I was able to admit this to myself  because it is finally when we admit we have a problem that we are able to make a change. This past week I have felt an emptiness like no other. I went into a little bit of a depression and there were days when I didn’t want to leave the couch, wanted to sleep all day, and didn’t want to be on social media at all. 

Then I realized that I have felt this type of emptiness before. It was back in college when I put all of my energy and happiness into a relationship that suddenly ended and I was left feeling hopeless, heartbroken, and totally insecure. This is the kind of emptiness that only God can fill. I know this because I have been here before and back in college when this happened and I had nothing but Jesus, MAN DID HE COME THROUGH. He always does and He always will. Suddenly my broken heart turned into the best thing that ever happened to me because I had a relationship with Jesus that was on FIRE and stronger than ever. I went back to college after the Summer with a new heart, a new outlook on life, and a new purpose. Obviously life happens and sometimes we can slip away from some of the most important things in our life, including our relationship with God. Our God is amazing though because He always brings us back. It is often in our hardest and darkest hours when we can hear God calling us back to Him the most. This week I felt God calling. 

I am excited to get my life back on track. I am excited to begin a new relationship with God and to lean my ladder on Him. Leaning your ladder on anything other than God will only leave you feeling empty inside every single time. I will still be on social media and I will still continue to blog but I will not let it consume my life like it was. There are so many more important things in life and I am so excited to spend more time with God, my family and my friends and to let the Lord be the one and only thing that defines my happiness. Everything and anything else will only leave me disappointed. I may not post as often as I used to but I promise that I will still continue to engage with all of you. Please bare with me as I begin this new season in my life. There will be times when I need to “unplug” and I may not post every single day. But I promise that I am not going anywhere for too long. You guys are my heart and I am so thankful for each and every one of you. I can’t say enough how much you all mean to me. 

“I have MADE you and I will CARRY you; I will SUSTAIN you and I will RESCUE you.” Isaiah 46:4

XOXO, 

Katy